The past week I have been doing some meditation as part of my centering of myself. I used to meditate regularly, but after a bizarre and awful experience I stopped. That was over 2 years ago. In December I went to a Buddhist temple for a 9-course vegan meal, which was amazing. They have it every month and I intend to go every month. They had some material on Buddhism, so I picked some up.
One thing that is key in Buddhism is discipline in your life and the acceptance that living is suffering and that with life comes death. Basically, you live to die so in order to experience life to its fullest, you must accept this and appreciate and really BE in the moment. This is not a new concept to me at all, I’ve read about Buddhism before and have always thought about my spirituality as being in line with Buddhism. However, over the past couple of years I have lost my discipline. I have let my mind take over my body and my life. It has even taken over my training.
It’s interesting how meditating and Buddhism can actually tie in with my own training, but it does. When one is training and is committed to this sport, discipline is incredibly important. To not have discipline usually means not achieving your goal, which can be a huge disappointment after putting in a year’s worth of effort (even if it is minimal effort) and emotional energy. This has definitely been the case for me over the past couple of years. My lack of discipline isn’t for no reason, but I think that I am ready to move past that and get out of the habit of not having discipline.
This week my discipline was not the best, but I did get on my trainer twice, get in two runs, and two swims. This is not too bad for me for now. I’m also trying not to be too hard on myself… this is tricky with discipline. I don’t want to feel guilty for not doing a workout, but I must stick to my plan and be disciplined about training. This week I’m hoping to get in 3 bike rides on my trainer, along with biking to work, two runs, and 3 swims. I guess we’ll see how disciplined I am to make all of this happen!