Today I started a challenge for myself… 40 days of exercising every day. It doesn’t matter if it’s dancing to my favourite tunes while vacuuming, doing squats while I drink my morning coffee, or running all hardcore. It doesn’t have to be anything major, but the intention of being active is what I’m going for.
While I was biking tonight I realized once again that I have stopped exercising, not because of disliking it, but because my internal motivation has deteriorated for reasons I cannot come up with. As I settle into my new life in small-town Saskatchewan at a new job, I figure I will settle into new routines. But I also need to create intention to incorporate exercise into my daily life.
Exercise for me has never been about losing weight. As most girls do, I had some body image issues for many of my teenage years. Somehow, though, I came to realize that my body was something I needed to take care of, not something that I needed to change. Over the past year I have definitely gained weight and I have had to look within myself to address the body image issues that have crept in. Above any negative body image is the economical and health problems that come up with my body getting bigger.
Economically, my clothes don’t fit! So do I get a whole new wardrobe or do I lose weight? I’ve went in the middle and bought some clothes, but am hoping to fit into the clothes I wore only a year ago. However, with all of this I am not going to weigh myself. I weighed myself the other day and it sucked. I’m not going to weigh myself because that’s not what this is about.
What I am focusing on the most is health. Obviously, it is unhealthy not to remain physically active. It’s a crappy cycle to get into where not exercising creates lethargy but exercising is hard after not being active for a while. Over the last few months I have made a more conscious to be careful about what I eat and to try to get some exercise. But I need more motivation, I need a challenge for myself. I need 40 days.
Why 40? I thought about doing 30, but I didn’t feel like it was long enough to be a challenge. Plus, in yoga 40 is the number to use as the time for personal revolution. So I figure that if I exercise every day for 40 days it will become, once again, a part of my normal day and my own personal revolution. I’m not going to lie, I’m a little worried about this whole thing. Who am I accountable to? Uhhh, no one really… just myself. I guess maybe the internet… the readers of this blog? Do I even need to make this public statement about it? Not really. I could just go and do it and not worry about the internets or this blog, but this is where I discuss exercise-related experiences I have. So here I am, declaring this as my first of 40 days.